50/50

i kinda care, i kinda dont.


i just wanna do me right now, let you do you, and hopefully sometime soon we can pick back up where we left off & fix us.

nope

not this time around.

keeping at it

it's as if it never happened.
most people can't be trusted.
but i'm gonna keep my mouth shut.
some things are better left unsaid.
it'd be best.
as long as i'm not doing anything wrong, then everything should be fine.
things are back in their place.
i'm back in my right mind.
doubtful feelings have disappeared and my heart is with its' rightful owner.
right where it belongs.

ochenta

i love how we can do absolutely nothing & still have the time of our lives

this past weekend

two all nighters in a row. friday night & saturday night. sitting and talking on the curb in front of baskin robbins. late night visits to see the bestfriend. realllllyyyy late night visit to see a drunken friend. baby luna <3 chitchat in lizs car til the sun comes up. then its off to lynwood. wake up wake up on a saturday afternoon next to a bunny. griffith park plans go down the drain and are easily replaced by an all expenses paid trip to pacific theaters at the grove ;) paid ice blended drinks, free pastries whaaattt? the cashier liked me haha. knight & day was quite alright. chill in parking lot, thiiiiiinkkkkk. we're in LA, what the fuck is there to do at 11 at night with two underage teens? damn my cousin! drive down melrose, hit beverly hills, fuck it. its back to lynwood again. hanging out & laughing in my dining room, when we finally decide. fuck it lets go out & adventure. 1 in the morning:

me- hey mom we're going out
mom- *nods* kay

i love how she trusts me, as long as i tell her what it is that im doing she doesnt mind. she knows i have a good head on my shoulders. take off, one block down, hellooooo compton. look for open joints, fail. everythings closed at 1:30 A.M. drop off reymundo. after driving around long enough.




while we're waiting... fuck it, self timer that shit.


empty house, no electricity, two lit candles, warm drinks, & a few chairs.

there's plenty of room with there being no furniture and all.
so what does that mean?
failed attempt to teach briana how to do a cartwheel.


had a good fourth of july. went to my tia's house where i ate delicious food, caught up with my cousin, watched the kids blow bubbles & play. then took off to el monte where mom was meeting up with dad so clarissa could spend the remainder of the day and this entire week with dad. then met up with chris & daniel and went back to christian's to play with fireworks and watch them make weak ass bombs. overall it was a good day.

clingy=no go.

hm :)

its days like these that make me wanna stay by your side forever.