clingy=no go.

hm :)

its days like these that make me wanna stay by your side forever.

old you.

new me. confused feelings, my emotions ran haywire. i let them get the best of me. i swear i'm not one to do this. i can say it over and over and over again until i convince myself that you believe me. as much as you say you believe me, i don't believe myself. things got a tad bit out of hand. "the situation" (as i like to call it) really isn't all that fucked up when you look at it from a farther view, so why do i feel so shitty? it felt right. it felt new and exciting and it felt like a feeling i once knew. it felt like something i haven't felt in a really long time. and honest to god, i liked it. i missed it. i craved it. deep down i want us to go back in time to when you used to be cute with me. way before we let ourselves get to be so comfortable with eachother. i need to get out of my comfort zone. lets go back to when we were still scared of saying something wrong, or when i would get nervous with the softest touches. i had a sample just to remind myself of how all of it once felt. i felt alive and spontaneous again. for once in my life. whats wrong with me? i don't know what to do, let alone what to think. i need time to myself.

wow

so i got a fortune cookie and it read "good news will come from far away"...and you're far away





asdfgsdfbvhj!

i thought i lost myself for a moment there

i thought i was ready, but a split second changed everything back to normal. i snapped to my senses.

call me crazy but,

i want more than anything in the world for you to keep me in your grasp for as long and as tight as possible. hold me close, dont let go. i deserve better. give me better.

hm

at least now i don't feel as bad.

EW

why the fuck do i do this?
complain then take granted once i get my way.
i really should think before i act more.
everything's so spur in the moment for me.
think think think think think!
damn it. >:/

70.

hospitals give me the heebie jeebies. upset, scared, sick people strolled in and out, looped through doors and elevators and different rooms. noises attempt to go in one ear & out the other. instead they are drilled into my head. cause my skin to shiver and make goosebumps appear. old man screaming from the pain. i couldn't help but freak out. i'm scared of getting sick and growing old.