old you.

new me. confused feelings, my emotions ran haywire. i let them get the best of me. i swear i'm not one to do this. i can say it over and over and over again until i convince myself that you believe me. as much as you say you believe me, i don't believe myself. things got a tad bit out of hand. "the situation" (as i like to call it) really isn't all that fucked up when you look at it from a farther view, so why do i feel so shitty? it felt right. it felt new and exciting and it felt like a feeling i once knew. it felt like something i haven't felt in a really long time. and honest to god, i liked it. i missed it. i craved it. deep down i want us to go back in time to when you used to be cute with me. way before we let ourselves get to be so comfortable with eachother. i need to get out of my comfort zone. lets go back to when we were still scared of saying something wrong, or when i would get nervous with the softest touches. i had a sample just to remind myself of how all of it once felt. i felt alive and spontaneous again. for once in my life. whats wrong with me? i don't know what to do, let alone what to think. i need time to myself.