im gonna be working

while you're off stage diving onto peoples heads. NICE.

.>> starting on aug. 26 @ 6:45 a.m.; ending on august 27 @ 3:55ish p.m. <<.
24+ hours spent continuously with papi chulo.
thats the way i enjoy my days passing by.

yesterday went as follows:
four o'clock in the morning; alarm goes off. snooze button is pressed a few times. 4:40 wake up. shower. dressed. pack. leave inland empire. covina post office by 6:25.
call. stroll to starbucks. monte. sleeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeepnexttobabe til he makes me get up cause "[i] cant be a lazy bum all day". i forgot what was in this 4 hour or so gap til we go pick up alex? stupid levis outlet sucks. i dont recommend it unless youre a big fan of 501's. ontario mills. hola andy zambrano. overwhelmed; i wish i could buy everything that catches my eye. at least i finally found some cute brown boots that won't cost me an entire paycheck. sbarros is hella expensive. i'm cheap. wait. no, i'm smart when it comes to shopping. mmmhm. walked around. run into laura yodog. catch up. montemontemonte haha. leave ontario mills. i am in great hate with the 909.
as if i'm on good terms with west covina.
or lynwood.

maybe i'm just altogether tired of southern california.
somewhere calm & peaceful might be in store for me sometime in the future.
a place i can call home.
as of now, nowhere possible.
nowhere in reach.

i got tired of giving the rundown of how yesterday was. to summarize it..
hot, sweaty & sticky
good quality time
sleepover


blaaaaaaaaah i am so tempted to buy this lovely kimchi dress. there's three different ones that i want to buy, buuuuuuuuuuuuuut i shan't. introduction to shakespeare ahhaha. class starts monday. one class mondays and wednesdays. three classes tuesdays and thursdays. free of education fridays and weekends. more hours of scooping hundreds of calories to people. those of you who haven't done so should really pick up one of those nutrition booklets we have RIGHT WHEN YOU WALK INSIDE baskin robbins. loads of fat, loads of cash. it's sort of a lose/lose situation. haha wow here i am hating on my job. well, i'm glad that i even have a job. the economy sucks. too many people have gotten laid off. too many people are forced to do what they should've done years ago: go back to school. community colleges are as jampacked as ever. i'll pray for you.

stomach ache. typically on work days i have a double scoop or a shake for dinner.
time for a trip to the kitchen.
shower.
then off to bed.
night

i'm finally getting the hang of this

my life has a nice little ring to it nowadays. i find myself right where i want to be. even though we might have gotten a little ahead of ourselves, i'm okay with taking a raincheck. of course. again with speaking too soon. mmmm it's more than alright :) i am nowhere close to full independence. what on earth was i thinking!? did i really think i had all my shit together? "so you think you can play house d'ya?" baby baby baby... you know me far too well.

on a brighter note: i await a fat,juicy check that has my name written all over it. all for briana. all for briana's necessities. end of november. yeeesss.

adrian emmanuel plays melodious tunes as sweet thoughts run through my mind.
what a lovely scene this is.
if only you were here. yea, then it'd be perfect.
yet i understand fully and i trust you being so far away.
it was nice being able to see you on three different accounts today before you left.
i miss you already.
(talk about sprung)
days like these. nights like these.
is it stupid that it feels weird each moment i don't spend with you?
is it stupid that no matter what i'm doing, where i'm at, or who i'm with my thoughts trace back to you? so many things that remind me of you. my ears anticipate the sound of your voice. my body longs for your sweet embrace.
i miss you too much.
a few hours feels like forever.
imagine a few days ha.

-- --- --

keep your youth.
remain immature.
i dont give a fuck.






im lying.

lets take a stroll down memory lane

looking back, clarissa is growing up way too fast. my little changa :/
i miss my family.
i'm hardly ever with my mom.
i talk to my mom a couple times a week.
i hate it.
it sucks.
divorce truly does tear people apart.











ever since the second we graduated,
it's as if we've grown extremely distant from one another.
my best friends are the only friends i have that i will literally do anything for.
the three of us each have our own things to worry about.
we'll find areas in our busy schedules that we may dedicate to quality time together.
soon enough.








loveofmylife.
'nuff said.
i've no idea what i would do if i didn't have him by my side.




yea, this is what happens when liz falls asleep early on a friday night...
leaving you with nothing else to do.
but look through old pictures on photobucket, ha.

i'll continue to take care of you, in sickness and in health.

oh baby

pretty fly for a white guy ;) mega babe. ahaha

feels kinda weird being at liz's right now since i haven't been here in more than three weeks. eyemeeesedhurr

last night

i saw harriet the spy for the first time in like a gajillion years.

my vision seems to be getting worse

i should probably wear my glasses more often.
lately i have these moments where my eyes go cuckoo bananas and everything is hella blurry.
they ache like crazy right now.
dent may is awfully soothing.
talk about healing and easy listening :) ahaha.
thanks for the heads up bub!
memes in a bit.
hope all you negros are having fun at sound and fury.
consuming all that time with my man.
goodnight babe, i love you
<3