"maintain yourself. he's not God"

my head is spinning, round and round. the world is ending. much sooner than i thought. the world is infested with sin. it belongs to the devil, and he continuously gains pleasure in seeing me fall. i cannot allow myself to be weak. somehow, someway, i NEED to discover a better path. i need to cross over that one bridge that will lead me in the right direction. God, please aid me and bless me with the courage to climb over this obstacle and give me the strength to continue on this long and winding road i call my life. i mustn't keep putting myself in the position where my hands are tied and my feet dangle over the edge. regain strength? gain strength. i don't think i ever really was strong. i have always been the one that gets walked all over. times are changing. time for rearranging. if i'm lucky, things will change. but in a sense it will remain the same. please please please. that is what i am aiming for. pray, all i must do is pray.

a miracle is all i'm asking for.